I just realized that I often do somethings that I don't wanna do, or I don't do somethings I really wanna do. Why? Because people around me sometimes convince me to do something they want me to do or to be. They want me to be a nice girl, then I'll be it. They want me to fight, then I'll be it. I wanna stand on my own feet, heeeeelllooooooooooooooooooooo I'm in High School now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm a big girl! I can choose my own path! Advice is necessary, but I don't have to take that advice if I don't want to. I want to choose my own path and take the risks. Okay, maybe my parents have chosen my path, path with less risks. But I wanna feel like I am alive. Life without risks is a lie. Taking my own path it means that I have to be somebody else, and being somebody I never was, is a risk I would like to take.
Hey, but doesn't taking my own path mean that I am being myself? I dunno, I dunno who am I. A girl nextdoor, a mean girl, a nice girl or else. I just wanna stand on my own feet, then I'll find out who I really am.
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